One reason I'm not ready is I know it is highly unlikely I'll be standing in a river soon. My grandmother turns 100 this month, and that takes priority. I will be visiting her twice in the next few weeks. By the time things settle down it'll be mid-October and the leaves will be littering the rivers.
The fall will blow past almost as fast as today's storm. But I will carve out time to stand in the rivers, feel the press of current against my knees, and forget -- for a moment -- all those things that don't really matter, but take up so much space. Fish on. Very soon.